I'm selfish.

I don't know where should I start with. I'm too shame to even, said anything. But I need a place to vent out everything. I don't know what am I thinking either. I should not have done this. But I did it on Tuesday night.

I just have to be fair to you and him. The best choice is I've to get away from your sight. So that I won't let you suffer in tears anymore. I remember this is not what I wanted two years before.

Two years back, I wanted you. But now I've to admit I wanted him. I can't own the two of your. Is so selfish. I know I can't give you any good so I've to leave you. I'll only made you suffer if I still think of him.

But always remember we once made the best. You gave me laughters and joy. You taught me things I never knew. Bring me to places where I've never been. Gave me the joy I never had. The most best thing to remember about is you'll never been forgotten by me, you taught me too much in life. You change me, but now I can't do anything. But I'm going back to square one.

I've seen too much in life. I know he will leave me one day for sure. But I risking to try. And I know you'll give me something that is called forever. But I've done too much that I don't even have the rights, to face you anymore. I'm sorry. Blame it on me. I made you cry too much for me. I can't be good. Please take good care of yourself. Don't do anything that harm yourself.

Called me a bitch.