I'll love till you stop it.

Sigh, 22 days more I can see baby's already! I just miss baby's so much la. Hopefully time pass faster, so I can see baby earlier. I miss you baby. ): Life is just so miserable! I rather go back inside, than to be leave alone outside without you. I really can't get use to it. But I've never regretted loving you, you just deserve all the best! Wonder how are you inside? It really make me feel uneasy because I don't know how are you feeling, what are you doing and how are you. Sigh, I can't think of what I've learned right now, but I'll thanks you someday. Please stay cheerful always, I would not wish to see you down, crying and stuff! You're the motivation of me now. Though, you are not here to cheer me up when I cry so hard, but look I don't blame you. Yet I love you more, even! Faster come out okay? I miss and love you.

Winnie is suffering.

Baby, I swear I missed you so badly. >:( I'm suffering with every tears I'm dropping now. Can you be here, for just one hour? I promise I'll speak all the truth to you. Let every thing turn back to the starting. I'll treat you the best that I can, listen to everything that you asked me to. I'll love you till you gave up.

I hope for those things that can't come true.

Went to Uss on the last day. Spent my last day sleeping. Sigh, I hope the moment I walk in the gate, my tears won't flow down. I'll be strong, as strong as I've never try before. Please uh, Winnie try all your best alright?

For those who care for me, please takecare of yourself. Buddy Vivien's please take care of yourself, don't allow others to walk in your life and hurt you again. Don't be stupid again. Be wise, okay? I love you although I can't be there when i need you. But always remember I will give you my support in every choices you made. But not things that will hurt you. Jeviar, I'll take care of myself. You too. (: Learn to accept things in life.

Baby, I'm really happy for those days spending with you. But, I guess you are never happy with me. Well, maybe I don't do any good, when I'm with you. But at least I love you full-heartly. If only leaving you can make you happy. Than I will leave. Thank you, for spending so much on me. Ya, I think that I'm just not good enough that's why you wanted to leave all the time. I don't know why must you, be with me when you already plan to leave me in the first place? Well, promises are meant to be broken. Why I can't learn it long ago, yet still giving in hope on your promises. I hope your time inside, will be fast. Don;t think too much, time will be better after you come out. All the best alright? I think I'm just a failure in every relationship. Well, I love you. If you think that I'm doing this, just to let you see, that well. I don't have to do this just to prove you, when you don't want to continue.

Winnie low, please be strong man. I know you can do it. I'm just afraid to mention. Take care, all my love one.

Days are unleft.

My days are left with countable. Well, if I've gone missing and you came by my blog you know where I'm gone to already. Takecare people. Luv ya.

Sorry, I have came thru.

I have no idea why, but just feel like update my blog. Like again. Kinda of not use to the life I'm having now. But well, I've to give it a try to anything. I can't linger on to the thing, that I'm use to. I need to try something fresh. Seriously, should I be happy or down? Gosh, I'm really getting sick of my life. Fml, I need something that I can fullfill myself. God, save me man!

So much unsaid.

There's so much for me to say. Baby's going to the court on 4th may. And I gotta say, is for his sentence. Though, is a short time, being with him. But, I doubt if why my feeling is so strong. Well, let pray hard.

Jeviar; BFF - I hope time thought you much in life. I hope, you will stay strong. Remember how hard and determine you try to touch me? You can do that again. Time, don't hold people back. It's depends on how hard you try. Remember, don't let the time control you. You should be the one, who control the time. JIAYOU, BFF!

We get depress when we fall in love.

What's life? I never get to know after this two years. I used to know what I want, now I don't learn and don't remember. What you taught me I can't follow anymore. I still know what, is right and wrong. But I can't obey anymore. Maybe one day I'll start to regret and ask myself why I can't I follow what you taught me to. Thanks and for once. I'm not worth for all stuff you did.

I'm selfish.

I don't know where should I start with. I'm too shame to even, said anything. But I need a place to vent out everything. I don't know what am I thinking either. I should not have done this. But I did it on Tuesday night.

I just have to be fair to you and him. The best choice is I've to get away from your sight. So that I won't let you suffer in tears anymore. I remember this is not what I wanted two years before.

Two years back, I wanted you. But now I've to admit I wanted him. I can't own the two of your. Is so selfish. I know I can't give you any good so I've to leave you. I'll only made you suffer if I still think of him.

But always remember we once made the best. You gave me laughters and joy. You taught me things I never knew. Bring me to places where I've never been. Gave me the joy I never had. The most best thing to remember about is you'll never been forgotten by me, you taught me too much in life. You change me, but now I can't do anything. But I'm going back to square one.

I've seen too much in life. I know he will leave me one day for sure. But I risking to try. And I know you'll give me something that is called forever. But I've done too much that I don't even have the rights, to face you anymore. I'm sorry. Blame it on me. I made you cry too much for me. I can't be good. Please take good care of yourself. Don't do anything that harm yourself.

Called me a bitch.

Starting afresh!

Heys peers! I may be alone now. But I'm still living my life happy. Maybe is better than before?

High all the night and I'm gonna be a new me! A new, Winnie's Low.

World turning and of cause I'm changing! (L)

Dearest Boy'f. Happy birthday!

Happy birthday, Jeviar's.

Baby, Happy birthday! All the best to the fruitful year ahead.

Be wise, and learn to know who's good and bad.

Well, I'm hope you enjoy your birthday at Topbar, Resort, Powerhouse and Oracle.

I'm sorry for those attitude that I've shown. Knowing that I drag my feeling on everyone on Powerhouse that night. No offence, just feeling unwell.

Anyway, love ya! (:

My dearest boy gave me everything in love.

Zoo trip with darling, Sam san and Louis san. was fun. More photos on Facebook. Was freaking fun.

went burberry than headed to social house awhile than to resort. Was so tiring last off day. Had so much fun too.

Anyway, was here to wish my dearest. Happy one year ten months. I love ya, much. So much that I can't express.

My sweetheart give me everything in life.

Using dearest phone to update my blogger. Time passes so fast. and now its 2011, well on the year 2007 I hope 2010 will goes fast, and now its 2011. going thru so much up and down with darling all this while. the pillar of my strength. she brought me into sense. although she always annoy me to do something for her. but baby thank you for everything you brought me. tears that brought me up. and boy that brought our relationship stronger.

time is passing fast, soon its the time that we got to miss each other badly. and endure to last this relationship. I love you and I always do.

My sweetest boy, love conquer all.

Happiness, is always companying me.

Well, it's seem years I've update my blog. And it's kinda, nothing exist in my mind called 'icantletyougo.blogspot.com'. Well, partly because I'm freaking busy working. Darling does the same as me. No much time for surfing the net. 

Well, working Is tiring yet, I can get everything I want. That's the greatest thing in life. Ya know, what is the most happiness thing in life. You don't need to crave for things you want, you don't have to ask for things you need. You just use your own money and get everything you need and wants. 

It's gonna be two years that me and jeviar's are together. Relationship sure have lots of up and downs. But we managed to go thru everything. Baby, bear that in mind. I'll always love you. My love..  

Happy birthday to me.

Nothing much, but still happy birthday to myself! (:
& Thanks darlinggggggg.

I don't wanna back to square one!

Hey, MORNING!
I was suppose to work with Weiping's today. Taking over Joycie's job for a day. But my dearest Weiping's did not answer my 20 over f-ingg call. Well, and I was too tired to sleep back. No events for today. But was planing to see Teresa's on this sunday. Which is two days later. Jensabella, here I'm coming to bring you back home. Laugh. I think I'm tired till over-board!

Well, 29 August- Sunday.
Met up with Viven's and Nas's. Terminal2 -Waraku's. Walk around and explore around the Airport's. Expect Barget terminal. Head over to Parkway's. Met up with Cherry's and Ray's. Chiatchated, Vivien's and Nas's went home. Met up with darling's at nearby house, than headed over to Beach Carbana with Cherry's, Ahray's and darling. Chit chat while drinking. Went home around 3, cause darling's have to work the next day. Sleep. Photos, will be post next time. Damn lazy to store in computer.

31 August- Tuesday.
Went Vivien's house, met up with Nas's and Vivien's. Waited for them to get prepare. Than head over to fetch Darling's. Boat Quay - Amber 21. Hehe, Nas's and Vivien's is trully dice and 5-10 loser. Nas was kinda drunk holding the Martell bottle. Act like bartender. And break the bottle on the floor. Damn funny.

The rest of the day are normal day. Met up with Vivien's and Nas's.

Only for 2 Sept- Thursday to 5 Sept- Sunday. Due to IT fair. They working.

Alright, Darling's my dream was just awesome! How I hope it was true in life! But you told me is just a dream! ):