Dearest Boy'f. Happy birthday!

Happy birthday, Jeviar's.

Baby, Happy birthday! All the best to the fruitful year ahead.

Be wise, and learn to know who's good and bad.

Well, I'm hope you enjoy your birthday at Topbar, Resort, Powerhouse and Oracle.

I'm sorry for those attitude that I've shown. Knowing that I drag my feeling on everyone on Powerhouse that night. No offence, just feeling unwell.

Anyway, love ya! (:

My dearest boy gave me everything in love.

Zoo trip with darling, Sam san and Louis san. was fun. More photos on Facebook. Was freaking fun.

went burberry than headed to social house awhile than to resort. Was so tiring last off day. Had so much fun too.

Anyway, was here to wish my dearest. Happy one year ten months. I love ya, much. So much that I can't express.

My sweetheart give me everything in life.

Using dearest phone to update my blogger. Time passes so fast. and now its 2011, well on the year 2007 I hope 2010 will goes fast, and now its 2011. going thru so much up and down with darling all this while. the pillar of my strength. she brought me into sense. although she always annoy me to do something for her. but baby thank you for everything you brought me. tears that brought me up. and boy that brought our relationship stronger.

time is passing fast, soon its the time that we got to miss each other badly. and endure to last this relationship. I love you and I always do.

My sweetest boy, love conquer all.

Happiness, is always companying me.

Well, it's seem years I've update my blog. And it's kinda, nothing exist in my mind called 'icantletyougo.blogspot.com'. Well, partly because I'm freaking busy working. Darling does the same as me. No much time for surfing the net. 

Well, working Is tiring yet, I can get everything I want. That's the greatest thing in life. Ya know, what is the most happiness thing in life. You don't need to crave for things you want, you don't have to ask for things you need. You just use your own money and get everything you need and wants. 

It's gonna be two years that me and jeviar's are together. Relationship sure have lots of up and downs. But we managed to go thru everything. Baby, bear that in mind. I'll always love you. My love..  

Happy birthday to me.

Nothing much, but still happy birthday to myself! (:
& Thanks darlinggggggg.

I don't wanna back to square one!

Hey, MORNING!
I was suppose to work with Weiping's today. Taking over Joycie's job for a day. But my dearest Weiping's did not answer my 20 over f-ingg call. Well, and I was too tired to sleep back. No events for today. But was planing to see Teresa's on this sunday. Which is two days later. Jensabella, here I'm coming to bring you back home. Laugh. I think I'm tired till over-board!

Well, 29 August- Sunday.
Met up with Viven's and Nas's. Terminal2 -Waraku's. Walk around and explore around the Airport's. Expect Barget terminal. Head over to Parkway's. Met up with Cherry's and Ray's. Chiatchated, Vivien's and Nas's went home. Met up with darling's at nearby house, than headed over to Beach Carbana with Cherry's, Ahray's and darling. Chit chat while drinking. Went home around 3, cause darling's have to work the next day. Sleep. Photos, will be post next time. Damn lazy to store in computer.

31 August- Tuesday.
Went Vivien's house, met up with Nas's and Vivien's. Waited for them to get prepare. Than head over to fetch Darling's. Boat Quay - Amber 21. Hehe, Nas's and Vivien's is trully dice and 5-10 loser. Nas was kinda drunk holding the Martell bottle. Act like bartender. And break the bottle on the floor. Damn funny.

The rest of the day are normal day. Met up with Vivien's and Nas's.

Only for 2 Sept- Thursday to 5 Sept- Sunday. Due to IT fair. They working.

Alright, Darling's my dream was just awesome! How I hope it was true in life! But you told me is just a dream! ):

Without some friends my life will still be prefect.

Well, I'm really excited over my birthday celebration. I hope I will be happy on the night. Without any problems, that made me stress. And also gather up with friends! (: And also with peers there to make me smile. Especially BABY's.

Ohkay, feeling damn awake at this time. Part of the reason because I was awake at 5.30pm yesterday. But I know it well, that I've to get to sleep real soon.

Well, gotta end here. Just end my phone call with Stephy. Nice chat though. (:

P.s : I really hate people can't keep to what they say. Not trying to be indirect. But if I state your name out, I'll make you gone to bad to worst. Nexttime, don't promise me, when you can't make it!

With you it's called happiness.

I'm here again. Watched Pck's with darling's yesterday. Phua chu kang's said : Don't play play. Hehe, kinda of funny. And enjoy watching it with baby's at tampiness. Brought Nation combo set. Two large drink and one large size popcorn. Yet we couldn't finish it. It's kinda too much for us.

Went home, chat and went to sleep. Was planing to go for bicycle ride actually but. Cancel it. So woke up at 2 going 3pm. Went to prepare and gone to nearby bugis.

After things is done, head over to bugis and have our lunch at Waraku's at illuma. It've being the second time I ate Waraku's this week. Even is kinda of sick, but enjoying the food there. Try going to any of their outlet and try. I think Terminal2, did not bad.

Actually wanted to catch up some movie again. But the show time have end. Wanted to watch Step up 3 but was afraid that it don't suit, the rest. So plan to watch it next week.

So well, headed to Katong's for karaoke sessions. Teo heng's, system have upgrade. And it feels much more better than last time before they've upgrade.

Darling am working tomorrow. So she kinda sleep early tonight. But well, she still watches Toy story 3 with me on her phone with me. Before she gone to bed! Love it when she show me love. Well, gotta say something sweet for her, I love you!

Counting to my birthday. Hope the plans is not ruin too. C:

Darling's thanks for every little tiny sweet stuff you've plan for me and gave me. You're my sweetest drugs.

Another boring day. ):

Heys! Friends out there. I'm here again! Well, those are those photos i took yesterday. And yea, was with bugis with Beibei's than headed to Terminal 2 to look for Darling's. And well, had dinner at Waraku's. Nice one. Than headed home afterthat.

Was bored today. Wanted to look for Mummy's but yet, she is working. So i better stay at home. Laugh! Anyway, meeting Miner's with Beibei's tommorrow. Going for a movie. I guess?

Yes, and going on a bicycle ride on thursday with Darling's. Than her own plan later on. But still follow her.

I think I gonna fetch Darling's later on. On 8.30! Loving it!

Your love is my drugs.

Hey peers! Finally darling forgive me already! Today went bugis with Beibei's. Than go terminal 2 to look for dearest. C: Have Waraku's for dinner. More photos for tomorrow. Brought some sweet stuff for dearest. C: Love ya, you're my sweetest drugs. 是你太好.

Brought a bow and Famous amos's for baby. Darling ain't selfish and share it with me. Hehe, yummy one! Spend all my money today.

Today is Baby's mum birthday, so happy birthday.

Well, I'm tired so a short one for baby : ever since you've being a part of me. I know you'll always be a part of me. I love you. Treat me with care, I show you with love. Thanks for giving me a chances. I luv you. Kisses! Workhardworkhard!

And for my information. I hear wrongly, Jeviar's did not told her dad that he raise his rank in work. Just say IF. Is I listen it wrong. ): Haha, having problem with my hearing. Sorry!

I'm useless without you.

I'm breaking down soon. My tears are dried up. I'm useless.

I'm lost without you.

The time is late and I still have work tomorrow. But i need a place to let out all my pains. I've tried my best to say all that I can. But moreover, I'm in the real pain now.

I have no rights to blame you getting angry. I've no rights to stop you if you wants to hate me. But I just ask for your understanding, and forgiveness. I don't ask for cars, money nor any expensive stuff. But now I'm asking for your love and forgiveness.

I've seen your facebook status. I know how it's felt when you feel that you're being betray. I know how it's feel, when I lied to you for a long time. You asked, what am i treating you as.

Alright now i tell you. That night when i tell you, what I've lied to you for sucha a long time. Before that we have some good and sweet time talking to each other. Reflashing back, how we spend our sweet time when we're just together. Well, I felt guilty so I've no choice but to tell you the truth. Before I really tell you the truth I've already know what will happen. But well, I just have to face up the consequences.

I can keep it from you forever, but I don't want that to happen. Because, there's no sercets in this relationship. And you've never keep any sercets from me, unless you're intending to give me some surprise.

I'm sorry for making you dissapointed, as you stated in your status that you're utterly disspointed in me. If it was me I will be as spechless as you too. But baby's, you know I'm trying my very best to ask for your forgiveness. Baby's, I sincerely apologies to you.

I know it's too late to say all this but it's better for me to do so than treat it as nothing happen. At least I apologies to you, than I did not. Than it would be like I think I'm not in the falut.

I know you still care. Baby's I over heard that you. are now first hand (translate to chinese) in kitchen. Congrats my dear. I hope I would hear from your own mouth that how gald you're. Share with me how happy you are.

As I know you wants a promotion too, who wants to, work so hard yet can't get a promotion. Am I right?

I can't have the chance to speak to you. So I hope when you see my blog. You can know how I felt and at least know what I wants to tell you.

Alright, I usually write messages to you in your cell phone application notes. But I'm afraid that you'll get mad is I take your phone without permission.

Notes for August 13.
I hope you won't be too tired today. I'm proud of you, getting a promotion. At least your hard work is being prove.

Nobody really cares about the past, what matters most is the present. Am i right? I don't see ya, minding my past. I don't see ya, hate me for my past. Why not, just forget it. As you know I've not done that nor mention that since ages ago. So why not give me a chance when you already know what I'm now.

It's late now and I've to sleep soon. But before I do so, I must do something else.

Lastly you asked if I treat you as what. I have no guts to answer this now. But i can answer I love you, and this is true.

No one knows.

I hope someone would understand me more. I felt like I've back to 3 years old. That my brains is blank. How i wish i would turn back the time when i was three years old. Sucha naive person. Without any troubles and pains. My wound is once open up again. I felt like nothing would heal it now. My mind is blank as I don't know what to do.

Why is god treating me so unfair? Stop toying with me. It's hurts each time when you intend to hurt me. I'm not strong enough for your hurts. STOP IT RIGHT NOW!

Can someone tell her, I don't want this to happen. Can someone tell her I'm heartbroken? My hopes are impossible. No one can fullfill it. Either can anyone, know.

Well, I'll respect your descion if you insist. But, just to say one more time I love you.

I love my peers!

10 August.

09 August.

Hey I'm back. Manage to meet Cherry Eightyone yesterday. Although it's at Market, I still enjoy it much. Because, Cherry and AhRay burst me and darling into laughter. They're sweet, yet very chor lor. Especially Cherry. Went home after that.

National day, did not went to my beloved cousin birthday's. Yet I ended up in parkway playing pool with Miner's and Beibei's. Well, headed to Eastcoast's later on. Saw Maidangdang, kind of scared. Cause like murder case like that. CLOWN!

Oh, well. I don't know how to continue already. So bye!

Post-edit.
I've heard that some particular place have being pulling retarded people! Well, is black and with shiny white teeth! Haha, they've downgrade till so rabak. Well, it's my old Kampong. Gosh, I'm feeling disgust.

Happiness is what I'm experiencing now.

I have no idea why, I always felt protective with J's around. With her around, I know everything gonna be fine. Yet, when she's not around I felt fears and having negative thoughts in mind. Well, maybe I'm relying on her too much. Yet, that make me Harder to depends on my own feet. But yet I know that, not all the things she's able to give a lending hand. But with her around, I don't feel fears. As I know that she's gonna give me encouragment, even if she's unable to do anything. Even if she did not mention anything. Her face can tell me, everything.

Well, I know myself well. I've serious attitude problem at times. Yet, that lead me to alot of trouble like having fights with my lovely ones. I don't know why, I've change alot since the incident I almost lost a good friend in SGH's. It's true that I change only for someone precious to me in life. I can't deny that, I never change for J's. Yet, I guess I've not put enough effort in it. And I'll do my very best, cause I always believe J's deserve to have that part of me. All I need is peace this few days. I hope there is nothing pissing me off. That might lead me to showing attitude. Somehow I just don't understand why human-being be more less realistic? Or maybe, have thoughts for other too. Well, I just have to know that, human being can be scary at times. C: But with J's around she gonna make my day.

Thinking back on, how we started on this relationship. To me I felt pure and indecent. And yah, as times goes by it felt more like use to having each other everyday. God bless, that this will never end.

Sometime tears are words that heart can't express. And it's hurt me each time looking at her cry. It might be ages a time. Yet, I never fail to cry with her. Cause it's breaking my heart into two. And this is a word for my dearest, live your life to the fullest! I love you, whole heartily. This I promise you.