Without some friends my life will still be prefect.

Well, I'm really excited over my birthday celebration. I hope I will be happy on the night. Without any problems, that made me stress. And also gather up with friends! (: And also with peers there to make me smile. Especially BABY's.

Ohkay, feeling damn awake at this time. Part of the reason because I was awake at 5.30pm yesterday. But I know it well, that I've to get to sleep real soon.

Well, gotta end here. Just end my phone call with Stephy. Nice chat though. (:

P.s : I really hate people can't keep to what they say. Not trying to be indirect. But if I state your name out, I'll make you gone to bad to worst. Nexttime, don't promise me, when you can't make it!

With you it's called happiness.

I'm here again. Watched Pck's with darling's yesterday. Phua chu kang's said : Don't play play. Hehe, kinda of funny. And enjoy watching it with baby's at tampiness. Brought Nation combo set. Two large drink and one large size popcorn. Yet we couldn't finish it. It's kinda too much for us.

Went home, chat and went to sleep. Was planing to go for bicycle ride actually but. Cancel it. So woke up at 2 going 3pm. Went to prepare and gone to nearby bugis.

After things is done, head over to bugis and have our lunch at Waraku's at illuma. It've being the second time I ate Waraku's this week. Even is kinda of sick, but enjoying the food there. Try going to any of their outlet and try. I think Terminal2, did not bad.

Actually wanted to catch up some movie again. But the show time have end. Wanted to watch Step up 3 but was afraid that it don't suit, the rest. So plan to watch it next week.

So well, headed to Katong's for karaoke sessions. Teo heng's, system have upgrade. And it feels much more better than last time before they've upgrade.

Darling am working tomorrow. So she kinda sleep early tonight. But well, she still watches Toy story 3 with me on her phone with me. Before she gone to bed! Love it when she show me love. Well, gotta say something sweet for her, I love you!

Counting to my birthday. Hope the plans is not ruin too. C:

Darling's thanks for every little tiny sweet stuff you've plan for me and gave me. You're my sweetest drugs.

Another boring day. ):

Heys! Friends out there. I'm here again! Well, those are those photos i took yesterday. And yea, was with bugis with Beibei's than headed to Terminal 2 to look for Darling's. And well, had dinner at Waraku's. Nice one. Than headed home afterthat.

Was bored today. Wanted to look for Mummy's but yet, she is working. So i better stay at home. Laugh! Anyway, meeting Miner's with Beibei's tommorrow. Going for a movie. I guess?

Yes, and going on a bicycle ride on thursday with Darling's. Than her own plan later on. But still follow her.

I think I gonna fetch Darling's later on. On 8.30! Loving it!

Your love is my drugs.

Hey peers! Finally darling forgive me already! Today went bugis with Beibei's. Than go terminal 2 to look for dearest. C: Have Waraku's for dinner. More photos for tomorrow. Brought some sweet stuff for dearest. C: Love ya, you're my sweetest drugs. 是你太好.

Brought a bow and Famous amos's for baby. Darling ain't selfish and share it with me. Hehe, yummy one! Spend all my money today.

Today is Baby's mum birthday, so happy birthday.

Well, I'm tired so a short one for baby : ever since you've being a part of me. I know you'll always be a part of me. I love you. Treat me with care, I show you with love. Thanks for giving me a chances. I luv you. Kisses! Workhardworkhard!

And for my information. I hear wrongly, Jeviar's did not told her dad that he raise his rank in work. Just say IF. Is I listen it wrong. ): Haha, having problem with my hearing. Sorry!

I'm useless without you.

I'm breaking down soon. My tears are dried up. I'm useless.

I'm lost without you.

The time is late and I still have work tomorrow. But i need a place to let out all my pains. I've tried my best to say all that I can. But moreover, I'm in the real pain now.

I have no rights to blame you getting angry. I've no rights to stop you if you wants to hate me. But I just ask for your understanding, and forgiveness. I don't ask for cars, money nor any expensive stuff. But now I'm asking for your love and forgiveness.

I've seen your facebook status. I know how it's felt when you feel that you're being betray. I know how it's feel, when I lied to you for a long time. You asked, what am i treating you as.

Alright now i tell you. That night when i tell you, what I've lied to you for sucha a long time. Before that we have some good and sweet time talking to each other. Reflashing back, how we spend our sweet time when we're just together. Well, I felt guilty so I've no choice but to tell you the truth. Before I really tell you the truth I've already know what will happen. But well, I just have to face up the consequences.

I can keep it from you forever, but I don't want that to happen. Because, there's no sercets in this relationship. And you've never keep any sercets from me, unless you're intending to give me some surprise.

I'm sorry for making you dissapointed, as you stated in your status that you're utterly disspointed in me. If it was me I will be as spechless as you too. But baby's, you know I'm trying my very best to ask for your forgiveness. Baby's, I sincerely apologies to you.

I know it's too late to say all this but it's better for me to do so than treat it as nothing happen. At least I apologies to you, than I did not. Than it would be like I think I'm not in the falut.

I know you still care. Baby's I over heard that you. are now first hand (translate to chinese) in kitchen. Congrats my dear. I hope I would hear from your own mouth that how gald you're. Share with me how happy you are.

As I know you wants a promotion too, who wants to, work so hard yet can't get a promotion. Am I right?

I can't have the chance to speak to you. So I hope when you see my blog. You can know how I felt and at least know what I wants to tell you.

Alright, I usually write messages to you in your cell phone application notes. But I'm afraid that you'll get mad is I take your phone without permission.

Notes for August 13.
I hope you won't be too tired today. I'm proud of you, getting a promotion. At least your hard work is being prove.

Nobody really cares about the past, what matters most is the present. Am i right? I don't see ya, minding my past. I don't see ya, hate me for my past. Why not, just forget it. As you know I've not done that nor mention that since ages ago. So why not give me a chance when you already know what I'm now.

It's late now and I've to sleep soon. But before I do so, I must do something else.

Lastly you asked if I treat you as what. I have no guts to answer this now. But i can answer I love you, and this is true.

No one knows.

I hope someone would understand me more. I felt like I've back to 3 years old. That my brains is blank. How i wish i would turn back the time when i was three years old. Sucha naive person. Without any troubles and pains. My wound is once open up again. I felt like nothing would heal it now. My mind is blank as I don't know what to do.

Why is god treating me so unfair? Stop toying with me. It's hurts each time when you intend to hurt me. I'm not strong enough for your hurts. STOP IT RIGHT NOW!

Can someone tell her, I don't want this to happen. Can someone tell her I'm heartbroken? My hopes are impossible. No one can fullfill it. Either can anyone, know.

Well, I'll respect your descion if you insist. But, just to say one more time I love you.

I love my peers!

10 August.

09 August.

Hey I'm back. Manage to meet Cherry Eightyone yesterday. Although it's at Market, I still enjoy it much. Because, Cherry and AhRay burst me and darling into laughter. They're sweet, yet very chor lor. Especially Cherry. Went home after that.

National day, did not went to my beloved cousin birthday's. Yet I ended up in parkway playing pool with Miner's and Beibei's. Well, headed to Eastcoast's later on. Saw Maidangdang, kind of scared. Cause like murder case like that. CLOWN!

Oh, well. I don't know how to continue already. So bye!

Post-edit.
I've heard that some particular place have being pulling retarded people! Well, is black and with shiny white teeth! Haha, they've downgrade till so rabak. Well, it's my old Kampong. Gosh, I'm feeling disgust.

Happiness is what I'm experiencing now.

I have no idea why, I always felt protective with J's around. With her around, I know everything gonna be fine. Yet, when she's not around I felt fears and having negative thoughts in mind. Well, maybe I'm relying on her too much. Yet, that make me Harder to depends on my own feet. But yet I know that, not all the things she's able to give a lending hand. But with her around, I don't feel fears. As I know that she's gonna give me encouragment, even if she's unable to do anything. Even if she did not mention anything. Her face can tell me, everything.

Well, I know myself well. I've serious attitude problem at times. Yet, that lead me to alot of trouble like having fights with my lovely ones. I don't know why, I've change alot since the incident I almost lost a good friend in SGH's. It's true that I change only for someone precious to me in life. I can't deny that, I never change for J's. Yet, I guess I've not put enough effort in it. And I'll do my very best, cause I always believe J's deserve to have that part of me. All I need is peace this few days. I hope there is nothing pissing me off. That might lead me to showing attitude. Somehow I just don't understand why human-being be more less realistic? Or maybe, have thoughts for other too. Well, I just have to know that, human being can be scary at times. C: But with J's around she gonna make my day.

Thinking back on, how we started on this relationship. To me I felt pure and indecent. And yah, as times goes by it felt more like use to having each other everyday. God bless, that this will never end.

Sometime tears are words that heart can't express. And it's hurt me each time looking at her cry. It might be ages a time. Yet, I never fail to cry with her. Cause it's breaking my heart into two. And this is a word for my dearest, live your life to the fullest! I love you, whole heartily. This I promise you.

老天爱笨小孩。

Next month is my birthday! I'm growing up, years by years!

Kay, firstly I wants to share this silly friend of mine. Miner wrote something on her facebook and made me realize why am I always doing something when my Dearest J's is asleep and I'll kiss her. When she started to move that attract my attention. Miner wrote this: ( guys who kiss girl when they're asleep means they really love the one sleeping beside him. ) Well, it was something like that. Can't properly remember what she wrote too. But it was something like that. And it started to reminds and made me understand why I always did that. So yea, it also made me know that I do really love me Baby's.

Well, for all this while I've hurt her deeply before either did Baby's do the same too. But I know that god's is giving us test. Wether we can pull it thru all those up and downs. Rains, thunder, peoples, quarrel, and tiny bits can't break us down. And I hope the rest of the days. Is still the same us, that never can break apart. Hee, know I'm kinda of mushy but it's bottom of my heart to baby's. Well, luckily I'm always stupid because 老天爱笨小孩。Well, I know is kinda of FOOL!

Monday national day gonna be my dearest cousin Wen Yong's birthday. Seeing him grows up years by years too. Not very sure if I can be able to be there on his birthday. So, I gonna wish him, all the best with everything. Alright, pass his PSLE next year so that he's able to go to any school he like. That's every children wish too. To being in a school with friends around. Alright, love all the peers in my family.

Woa, J's is kinda of piggy this few days. And seriously we don't have much time together. And well, I know he do have time for me on our this month anniversary. But a word HappyAnniversary will already bright up my day. And I always believe that he won't forget this special day every month. Although her time is not right but still she manage to wish me on the right day. Thanks god I found you seriously.

Oh well, I shall need a job soon. Firstly for my birthday. Secondly, I wants the hello kitty camera, which I wanted long ago. Yea, and I shall make it. By all the effort I put thru. Not very sure if I have any plans for my birthday. But still, thinks that nothing special too. Every year the same old things happening. And just if J's there with me my birthday will be another memorial one.

Well, I know.

Hey peers out there. I'm back again. And well luckly I did not get to dark after sentosa trip. All thanks to the sun block that J's brought. Well, as I hate to be called BLACK. (: I thinks sames goes to every girls too. Well, might not be all but most of it. Have being thinking about my ring that I lost it during the beach play. Oh yea, the ball float over so far away to the half of the sea. Just like my ring. ): 我知道他对我来说太重要了。So till now I'm still felt regret for being so careless. Anyway, as long as me and J's still stay as loving as before I'm content.

Well, I've seen it thru I think that I'm leading my life to the fullest now with J's around me to support me all this while. As I know if there's no him pulling me thru. I might not even can pull thru now. 3 more days to our anniversary. <3 One year Five months. Thanks god I've you in my life. Oh well, am I starting to neglect friends, as I know they are all busy with stuff too. As some of them have their loves one to carry on their life with. Well, as for some. I don't even wants to give a damn. Cause what's self love they don't even aknowledge. So no point love them when they don't love themselves. Am I right? Well, I think I've gone over my limits.

Thinking of any more surprise for J's. Have something in my mind. But I'm afraid that J's don't have place to keep. And it'll ended up wasted my effort. (: alright it's late now. I got to have some sleep already.

The most blessful thing that god gave me is you.

Firstly, before i start anything. I would like to aplogise to my dearest. Because i lost our last month anniversary gift " Couple ring ". When i throw the ball up in the air then.. Swing my hand with full strenght. Then realise opps! MY RING! OMFG, WHY AM I SO CARELESS! THIS RING IS WITH ME ONLY FOR A MONTH! AND I FELT SO DEPRESSED! ):

My rountine for today! Beach day out!
*Buss-ed to Plazzasing.
*Meeted up with Baby's cousin. (Huihui) "Same name as my sis".
*Brought stuff for Sentosa trip! Especially needed for me is Sun block.
*Train to Hf. Buss-ed to Sentosa.
*Siloso beach's. If i'm not wrong with my spelling.
*Played. And lost my ring.
*Headed back to HF. Baby went to Candy Empire brought COCO and SWEETSWEET.
*Train to Bedok.
*Accompany Baby with Beibei to buy 916 Gold Chain for me. Yeah, wait longlong. Definetly is for herself.
*Went to another shop to buy Abacus Pendant for Baby. Treat it as this month anniversary gift for her. Waiting to get a big gift too. HAHAHA!
*Headed to changi airport for dinner.
*Meeted up Meimei and Melvin.
*Waraku's. Billed: $94.. Cool!
*Headed home! (: End of day!

Special post for Baby's.
I'm so sorry that I was so careless. ): Hope you won't bear that in mind. I did not do that on purpose either. This is a accident. Anyway, hope you like your anniversary gift. I ask you choose that pendant you don't want that pretty lady ask you, you want. Like her don't like me right? CHANGE! Hehe, tell you already don't believe my taste! Punch you ah! Anyway, i love you my sweetest boy'f. You're the sweetest gift from god! I'm sorry for yesterday either.

Happy anniversary!

( Happy anniversary my dearest baby! )
Watched twilight with Baby, Beibei, Meimei and Melvin at illuma yesterday! Baby, did one thing stupid but still adorable to me. She brought couples ring at Silver Corner for the both of us. And she hide it for me all the way until we shopped end, brought tickets, food and have our butts tucked in the chair than she took out the ring that she brought. Open it up like she is asking me for marriage! Laugh, indeed she gave me a surprise that day!

Although we've not spend much time yesterday but than still glad that you at least gave me sweet memories, in life. Although you like that jacket you brought very much. But than I still think it look more like bugis street street 10 bucks jacket. But the inner side don't look like lah. (:

Laugh, thinking back that I brought the zip pouch which wrote there, DAMN I'M BROKE. And I feel that I'm kinda feeling this way now. But it's ohkay after tue I'll have my money back again! Working is the best way not to see your wallet without a cent inside! (: Gonna ask for Posb card from baby again unless she still have cash with here later. Lol!

Back from the ladies. Alright! I'm thinking of what to crave on our rings! (: I think is common on rings like ( Who love who ) . I want something special other than this! Alright maybe I shall talk it out with Jeviar first! (:

You're just everything i ever wanted I love you!

:O

At brother house right now. Waiting for mum to finish her things than go shopping! Horray! Finally can shop! :) Anyway is just a short post lah! :) Gotta tell Jeviar two more days to our anniversary! Love ya, like peanut butter! I don't know why I'll wrote this but for the sake of fun! :)

You're the one i ever wanted.

16 monthsary coming in 6 days time!Do hope for an enjoyable day for the both of us.Ya.. Indeed we did not spend so much time together on our anniversary time this few months. So I did hope that this month we gonna spend our day to the fullest! Alright, indeed you know that I'm always being wishing for, just the both of us day. Felt like, times is like passing so fast. And both of us is together going to 16 months. Ain't this fast and I just can't believe my self that I'm bissfully attached to you for 16 months. Baby, you know that it's gonna be still counting on. Although i did so much mistake in the past. But you've never fail to give me chances by chances. Being soft hearted to me all the times. And indeed, you've never wanted to leave me either. Even if your heart is telling you to do so. But you're love for me, is telling you to hold on to me. Thanks for all the forgiving and I'm sorry for all the pains I've brought to you.

Ever since you started working. Time for us is getting lesser and lesser. Baby, I understand for all that. But you everytime attitude me one ley, when you just come back from work. You don't drag feeling at me hoh! I'll punch you one hoh! Belive me. Hehe! Well, you know me well too. This is just joking. But seriously this is also an advices to you. Don't attitude me when you see this hoh! Hao lah, baby remember don't tired yourself during working hours.

Well, fcuking hell. Suppose to go work today but saddly to say. It's ain't my day. Don't wish to mention more. Scuks!

04July after work is going to my beloved cousin birthday party! Well, hope I would be able to make it on time. For present I really don't know what i should get for her. As in we're different age. So I seriouly don't know what she'll like. And guess she won't be playing with toys either. So is getting my brains cracking.

Another brain craking time, this time round what to get for Jeviar for our 16 monthsary. It's really getting my brain craking. Jeviar, have all the things she wants now. And what more can i do? Guess I gonna get something for her, when i get my pay. Ya.. The best ideas!

Alright, got to sleep early tonight for tomorrow work! ;) Horray! The more I work, the more money I'll be earning! Such a nice deal for me! Money is everything you need in life. No money no honey!

Luv sweetheart ttm! You're all I wanted in life. Thanks for all the best memories you store in my heart. It's only you who have the key to my heart! I luv ya!

P.s : Where is the second book of my dearest "Little three pigs story" . Where's her babi, babo and baba? And where is the next things gonna happen to them? Ah, baby! When are you going to countiue for the readers. Like that who will buy your book? Alamak! So half way one ley you do things. Buey tahan you ley. Laugh.. Let her countiue soon. Don't rush her, she work very hard for it.